My new year's resolutions for 2010 I distinctly remember saying I wanted to do two things: (1) use eye cream every night, and (2) move fewer times in 2010 than I did in 2009. I will have accomplished the latter. The former will be on my list, again.
A refresher. In 2009 I moved three times. Then in April of this year I moved back to Idaho. That is actually four times in 12 months. Now, at the very beginning of the new year, on January 1, 2011, I am moving again. This time I am moving just a hop, skip, and a jump away from my parents, my brother, my gram, and that whole mess of family you've seen in pictures here. Last week was about getting ready for Christmas. This week is about getting ready to move.
You'd think I wouldn't have that much to do. I've literally been living out of a suitcase... plus all the other crap I've managed to accumulate in my upstairs room. And for the record, my mom has attempted to get me out of said suitcase but I find it a great place to dump clothes once they've been balled up and removed from the dryer. :)
And setting up a household again, despite still have a 10x10 storage unit with things in it, is actually not as easy as it sounds. Today my mom, gram, and I went to Twin Falls and had a major marathon shopping day. I scored some great deals. But at the last store, standing there with two grocery carts full of stuff I needed: dishes, coffee maker, kitchen towels, garbage cans... it felt completely overwhelming. The sheer volume was overwhelming. And I'm not even done yet.
I'm excited for this next phase in my life. (Don't worry, mom, I will still be over every night even if it is just to play Jeopardy). I'm also worried. Whether or not I should, I consider the last attempt at living my regular, adult life (as in the years from 18 to 30???) a colosal failure and I'm scared to fail again. I know I have this incredible safety net, for which I am eternally grateful. But I just don't want to crash and burn. I feel tentative and unsteady. Let's see how I feel when I get the dishes put away and the storage unit dust cleared and the dogs washed. Maybe I'll feel good. And then maybe I'll post pictures!
"Fatigue makes cowards of us all" and night-time after a major shopping workout is not a good time to contemplate change. You will do well; you've planned, thought this out, and looked forward to living your life again (and I'm not offended at the looking forward part) Don't think too far out. I think you're right--let's just get this hard moving part done and you'll be much better.
ReplyDeleteI think you're perfectly normal to be considering and pondering your change. Does it make you feel better to know I'm starting to freak out about having another baby? Everything from actual birth to bringing her home and taking care of her. And I've done this before too!
ReplyDeleteYou'll do well at your own place. I have no doubt about that. And your support network is close, (and even up towards Rigby! :) I'm excited for you, but at the same time I understand where you're coming from! Good Luck!
Thanks to both of you. You are right. Tired is not a good time to contemplate and yes, it does help to know that I am not the only one with freak out situations before me!
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