Time machine

Sometimes it would be nice to have a time machine, or actually more like a time advancer.  You could watch your life unfold, but on fast forward like you go through commercials on your TiVo.  That way you'd technically not miss anything and you could get to the good parts.  Just like skipping the commercial breaks or "words from our sponsors".

I guess that assumes the stuff you are skipping don't qualify as good parts.  Take my life for instance, since this blog is about me and I'm writing it.  I see some really great things on the horizon, maybe weeks or maybe months.  Since I don't know for sure, I'd fast forward slowly.

So you might say, "but you'd miss learning experiences and lessons" and yada yada yada.  That's fine.  I'm good.

That is not to say I'm not grateful for the things I've learned and the ways I've grown over the last few years.  I really am.  It's just that I'd like more enjoying life and fewer character building experiences.  Right now I don't think bedridden is an accurate description of my life, but the last couple of days it has kind of felt that way.  Thank goodness for instant Netflix.

This morning I got a call from Allsup and learned a few really great things.  In short I am getting my first benefit check this month, it's a decent amount, and my Medicare is retroactive to May 2009.  All I need is the little card sent to me in the mail so I can get to a doctor.  And of course I need to sign up for Medicare Part D for prescription coverage.

So things are happening, there's progress, etc.  But I'd like to fast forward past the waiting, past the initial doc appts, past the pharmacy, past taking pills, and finally get to the point where medication has run through my bloodstream and I feel some relief.  Then I'll evaluate how far to fast forward from there.  How about fast forwarding to "happily ever after"?

Yeah life is a journey.  But right now, in this moment, I am all about the destination.