Day 6

This is what my eyes look like today.  My trial for Photoshop is over and now I need to acquire a licensed product, but you get the picture.  The migraine/headache issue continues.  At least I am not puking today.  Knock on wood, there is exactly one hour and seven minutes left in this day.

I turned off comments for awhile.  Don't ask, it was a mood.  Now I've tried to turn them back on but am not sure if I succeeded.  Oh, well.  Obviously not a huge priority for me.

In case I forgot to mention this, I did end up making a doc appt and it is Monday.

I'm having a really hard time.  Lots of emotional breakdowns that include something like "I can't do this anymore" and "how about you give me handful of hypodermic needles and some bottles of halidol".

But tonight I actually took the dogs for a walk instead of relying on my brother to do it.  It was wonderful as usual.  The air smelled good to me, for the first time in a few days.  And for a few minutes there, I didn't feel like poop.  It was nice.

Note to self: remember this moments and let them sustain in the darkest of hours.