Sweltering

Migraines happen when blood vessels constrict, inhibiting blood flow (and oxygen) to the brain.  I caught mine early today and took an Imitrex.  Thank you to the good folks at Glaxo-Smith.  But sometimes the cure is worse than the disease!  Or at least it feels that way.  The Imitrex makes me sweat buckets and the humidity from the approaching or receding storm is not helping.  I've drank at least two liters of water and crystal light.  I get so dehydrated!

But worse, I get cranky.

In my crankiness today, I am frustrated.  My mom tells me two things that I think are important, but usually let go in one ear and out the other.  First, she says I should take some time to heal this summer and not try to jump right into classes or moving to Pocatello, etc.  Second, she says I should consider my progress, and yes, she considers that I've had progress.

It just feels like I've been at a stand-still forever! What freaking progress?  So I can walk down the drain ditch.  Yippee freaking skippee!  Can I go back to work, go for a run, sit at the table without terrible pain?  No. 

I want some shit done and I want it done NOW!  

I feel hopeless.