Scars - warning of graphic content below

I remember the hope so clearly.  I'd had the trial for the intrathecal drug delivery device otherwise known as the pain pump weeks before.  Then there was my surgery.  And I've talked about the month after with the spinal headache and dealing with that nasty binder thing and not being able to swim or take a bubble bath or anything like that for a month.

But here is something new.  When you look at my most recent CT, which was about a year and a half ago, you see a lot of scar tissue surrounding the catheter that didn't make it into the intrathecal space in my spinal column as it should have.  There is also a lot of scarring where the actual catheter or tubing wraps from the pump that rests in the tissue between my lowest rib and hip bone on my left side.

I'm pretty focused on the scars on my side and my back.  I think they are hideous.  Well, the back one is not too bad but the front didn't heal in some nice, straight line.

It is my great hope that with my new healthcare coverage, I'll be able to get the pain pump situation figured out and I will be able to rock a new pump that continually disperses pain medication directly to the source.  But I have some worries.  After all, I am a worrier.  These are my worries: (1) how will the scar tissue inside my body affect the proper placement of the catheter; and (2) what will the visible scars be like?  Worse?  The same?

Below are some pictures of my incisions as they were healing.  Some may find the pictures icky.  I love them, but then again I am a blood and guts kind of person.  Gazer beware...