Usually I try to keep perspective. "It could be so much worse... I could have cancer or MS or... etc." Not today. Today I am just going to bitch and moan about what is pissing me off about chronic pain.
It started out with the weekend Utah trip. Then last night was the crescendo.
On my birthday I got to write, a lot. Then my parents came home from work and we made a scrumptious dinner and then we watched some episodes of "House" from season one. It was fantastic! As everyone was turning in for the night, my brain was still on fire. I wanted to write and write. But could I? No.
I tried to sit in bed and write but it was just too stinking painful. I ended up laying on my side watching silly TV on Hulu. And I was furious.
Also, there's the jealousy. I was deeply jealous of my brother and SIL as they ran in that race. I am always jealous when my parents hop on their elliptical machine at night. I'm even jealous of my dog Libby when she jumps up and down when I get her ball.
There is a special kind of low for people who are jealous of dogs.
I will inevitably go back to counting my blessings and be grateful for everything I can do. I will quit bitching about what I can't. But not today.
You don't have to be Pollyanna all the time...I hope that you don't think I expect that from you. Sometimes life just sucks, and then you cry, and hopefully feel a little bit better the next day! Call me sometime instead of watching stupid TV...I'm sure I can think of something inappropriate to say that will make you laugh. :)
ReplyDeletePS- Your Homer quote of the day, "Kids, you tried your best and you failed miserably. The lesson is, never try." Made me snort! :)
ReplyDeleteAh, Homer. He has such great perspective on life.
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