My mind is running about a million miles per hour. It just won't shut off. I really need that drug I am still missing. Nothing but a specific class of drugs will help. I've had this problem for years now and I know how long it can go and how far. The last time it was this bad I was averaging about 3-4 hours of sleep a night for about two months.
Now I am trying everything I can think of to help. But inevitably even if I fall asleep around 1 or 2 AM, I wake up a couple of hours later and can't get back to sleep. Later on in the day I will sleep when I am so exhausted I can't keep my eyes open. But it is for a few hours at a time. And falling asleep at 6PM and waking up a couple of hours later is likely perpetuating this cycle.
And it's not that I'm not tired. I really, really am! It's just that my brain won't give it a rest!
When I finally do have access to health care again it's going to be like a shopping spree: I'll take this drug, and this one, and this procedure, and this provider.
But I'm having a hard time hanging on until the someday becomes today.
I hope you get a whole buffet of medical procedures soon!
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm sorry about the sleep problems. Mine have never been to the extent yours are, and so I can only begin to imagine how miserable it is!