Just an update

Is anybody really good at waiting? Can anyone really say, I can wait and wait and wait and it doesn't bother me in the slightest? Can anyone say, I love to wait in long, slow moving lines, and I love waiting for the most important letter of my life to date in an endless cycle of pain and hope and frustration?

I was in a state of panic this morning, waiting for my Klonipin to kick in and fidgeting like crazy. It was 6AM, but I figured business hours on the east coast. I called the company that's been helping me with my claim (Allsup) and talked to someone about... I don't know just getting reassurance.

First, I was worried that since I never got a written letter from the judge asking me to go to that evaluation thing (from a few weeks ago), that maybe they didn't have my address or something. I did read it into the court records, but hey, this is the social security administration. But I was told this was actually common that the request for an evaluation go to my representative rather than to me directly.

Second, I wanted to know if they knew anything I didn't know. I was told that basically the judge will make a decision, it will go to the decision writers, then it will go back to the judge for review, etc. This whole deal could take 3-5 months from the date of my hearing and we've just hit the three month mark.

My brain is a scrambled mess and I can't concentrate on anything. And that is what's going on with me.