Here’s a familiar theme: I am living my life, actually living, doing things rather than doing nothing, and now I have increased pain, well lots of it actually. When I am protective, when I do relatively nothing, I do much better with pain. But then I don’t get to really live. A simple way to look at it:
Living life = increased pain
Not living life = not increased pain
I struggle with this dilemma. Do I have a responsibility to my family to try to live with as little pain as possible? Is my need to do things like go see Star Trek again with friends last night and sit up nights playing stupid Face Book games and clean the house important enough to justify the pain?
I seek normalcy. So to the second question I say, yes. I’m sorry for the inconvenience. But I’m tired of being patient. And I’m tired of being a patient.
Do you think that we all have struggles and dilemma's in everything we do? I just say this because as I think of your dilemma, it mirrored the ongoing one I've had this summer, as in "where does my wants fit in with everyone elses?" I just thought that was a little crazy.
ReplyDeleteI think yours is a harder question to answer, as yours actually causes physical pain. But I think that the answer lies somewhere around this:
You do what you're comfortable with, you don't have to make everyone else happy! And if you choose to stay up watching Star Trek, you definitly shouldn't feel guilty about that! :)
Remember I'm always on "your" team!
I'm a team player, just benched for now, but I'll be back in the game, soon, coach.
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