I’ve been feeling a deep paralysis. First, some good news. I got a letter from Principal Life (the company that pays my disability benefits) that said I will be getting paid through 5/21/09 for sure.
Now for the paralyzing factors. After that is based upon the determinations made by the IME, home visit, doc notes, etc. So that part is still up in the air. So I don’t know if I will have an income, therefore I don’t know if I will be able to pay COBRA for health benefits.
I have to find my own doctor to do my stimulator trial and follow-up care. There are basically two docs left. I’ve been to both, loathe both, but will go to them. I put my case before one of them and am waiting to hear back as to whether or not he wants to do this.
But so then will I even be able to do any of it? Without health insurance, nope.
It’s hard to do much of anything without knowing. So I sit here on edge, waiting for the letter that may turn my life upside down.
But please remember one thing:
I'm a bird girl
And the bird girls can fly
Bird girls can fly
That is a nasty feeling...I've never had it over something so big, but I can remember times when David was in graduate school and I didn't know how we'd make a house payment or buy groceries and I think the weeks leading up to the decision were almost worse than just dealing with the situation, once you knew what it was...if that makes any sense.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you are getting paid until 5-21, and I'll keep sending you good karma and keeping my fingers crossed.